Post by Werewolflink on Sept 29, 2009 22:26:52 GMT -5
Earlier today I was feeling a bit nostalgic about the past 2 years we've been together.
Back on the Guild, things were more peaceful, perhaps due to Neopets "Snail mail" way of communication. Do I blame Xat for tensions that have built between us? No.
Honestly, blame cannot be placed on one single person. It is the faults of the group, not a single entity, but of the whole. No human is created perfect, despite what our parents might wish us to be and attempt to model us as such.
People age, and with age, emotions bloom. Emotions that, have always been there, perhaps dormant, perhaps only slightly active, but there none the less. And especially the Teen ages, where hormones flood the body, affecting our decisions and our thoughts.
But enough of the trivialities of the now and the problems we face, lets all look back at the THEN.
At a much simpler time, where things were brighter.
I was living in Virginia, which I do miss so fondly and perhaps, deep down, that could be an underlying reason to explain my rash and aggressive nature Ive developed.
I remember the Board Rp's Id join. I would skim the RP Board for the efamed "Miss_elemental" an esteemed name in my mind, and in all likelyhood my first Internet friend. I would sit at the computer for hours, pretending to be something I wasnt. A boy whom, while based off of many of my physical features, or rather WANTS of my physical feature, and yet at the same time a creature that was nothing like me. He had the power of Wolf Shapeshifting, and was part of a group called Gifted, a race of humans with extraordinary powers that were frowned upon by Society. Perhaps it caught my eye because it reminded me of Comics, and Marvel and DC. Of course, who wouldnt want to be a Superhero?
What I rather enjoyed at times during the RP, was that, every so often, at first, the story would reset, and with new people coming in, altogether change. While my intro would remain the same; the boy digging around in a dumpster, oftentimes gnawing on a bone in his mouth absentmindedly, with very few alterations, the story would always change.
Then the RPs began continuing, and that brought about something else. The same people started to come back, and I could actually remember names and faces, something I'm terrible at in real life.
Many members passed through my RP career that I would like to take the time to remember. While I might not be able to remember their names, and I wont lie, there were a few that I didnt like at all, many carved a place in my heart that is still there, and I wish I could find them again, and be able to RP with them.
Soon Miss Elemental invited me to a Guild. Id been in them before, with some friends of mine, and it took me awhile to decide to leave the irl friends for virtual ones. This is perhaps the very first time that I chose virtual reality over the real world, and its the first domino in the chain.
The Guild began to consume my life, virtual reality more appealing than the antics of sports. The world outside was hot, or cold, but the house was always a nice temperature, and the chair more comfortable than standing or running would ever be.
As we aged, we began using more adult RPing. Relationships, death, and swearing, to name the most predominant. We outgrew Neopets, a childs site at heart, with only kids in regards.
So we fled, to an offsite Site, this one.
And with it came my want of Leadership, my want, to change the RP scheme slightly, and create something of my own envision: Heroes Vs Villains.
The Site started as a fail, my computer Skill lacking in the art of HTML, Photobucket, Administration and other things. I left the Site to rot for two months, and instead joined PRPM (An entirely different story...)
I wont lie, many things on my Site were derived from PRPM. the once great Site that, for awhile, entertained me the same way the Board RPs did. But with all things, Things Fall Apart.
This roughly brings us to the present, where we have become, lusty, and at each others throats over trivial and controversial matters. Sides have been drawn, emotions have let loose, and insults fly rampent.
And so, i find myself, yearning for the old days, when things were much... more.. peaceful......
Back on the Guild, things were more peaceful, perhaps due to Neopets "Snail mail" way of communication. Do I blame Xat for tensions that have built between us? No.
Honestly, blame cannot be placed on one single person. It is the faults of the group, not a single entity, but of the whole. No human is created perfect, despite what our parents might wish us to be and attempt to model us as such.
People age, and with age, emotions bloom. Emotions that, have always been there, perhaps dormant, perhaps only slightly active, but there none the less. And especially the Teen ages, where hormones flood the body, affecting our decisions and our thoughts.
But enough of the trivialities of the now and the problems we face, lets all look back at the THEN.
At a much simpler time, where things were brighter.
I was living in Virginia, which I do miss so fondly and perhaps, deep down, that could be an underlying reason to explain my rash and aggressive nature Ive developed.
I remember the Board Rp's Id join. I would skim the RP Board for the efamed "Miss_elemental" an esteemed name in my mind, and in all likelyhood my first Internet friend. I would sit at the computer for hours, pretending to be something I wasnt. A boy whom, while based off of many of my physical features, or rather WANTS of my physical feature, and yet at the same time a creature that was nothing like me. He had the power of Wolf Shapeshifting, and was part of a group called Gifted, a race of humans with extraordinary powers that were frowned upon by Society. Perhaps it caught my eye because it reminded me of Comics, and Marvel and DC. Of course, who wouldnt want to be a Superhero?
What I rather enjoyed at times during the RP, was that, every so often, at first, the story would reset, and with new people coming in, altogether change. While my intro would remain the same; the boy digging around in a dumpster, oftentimes gnawing on a bone in his mouth absentmindedly, with very few alterations, the story would always change.
Then the RPs began continuing, and that brought about something else. The same people started to come back, and I could actually remember names and faces, something I'm terrible at in real life.
Many members passed through my RP career that I would like to take the time to remember. While I might not be able to remember their names, and I wont lie, there were a few that I didnt like at all, many carved a place in my heart that is still there, and I wish I could find them again, and be able to RP with them.
Soon Miss Elemental invited me to a Guild. Id been in them before, with some friends of mine, and it took me awhile to decide to leave the irl friends for virtual ones. This is perhaps the very first time that I chose virtual reality over the real world, and its the first domino in the chain.
The Guild began to consume my life, virtual reality more appealing than the antics of sports. The world outside was hot, or cold, but the house was always a nice temperature, and the chair more comfortable than standing or running would ever be.
As we aged, we began using more adult RPing. Relationships, death, and swearing, to name the most predominant. We outgrew Neopets, a childs site at heart, with only kids in regards.
So we fled, to an offsite Site, this one.
And with it came my want of Leadership, my want, to change the RP scheme slightly, and create something of my own envision: Heroes Vs Villains.
The Site started as a fail, my computer Skill lacking in the art of HTML, Photobucket, Administration and other things. I left the Site to rot for two months, and instead joined PRPM (An entirely different story...)
I wont lie, many things on my Site were derived from PRPM. the once great Site that, for awhile, entertained me the same way the Board RPs did. But with all things, Things Fall Apart.
This roughly brings us to the present, where we have become, lusty, and at each others throats over trivial and controversial matters. Sides have been drawn, emotions have let loose, and insults fly rampent.
And so, i find myself, yearning for the old days, when things were much... more.. peaceful......